Your every day love story turned to tragedy

It all started with an unexpected kiss.
I have been hanging out with her for the past couple of days, playing basketball at the local courts, going to the mall, and watching movies in my room. I drove her home and she gave me this kiss. Looked into my eyes like there was no one else standing on the plant. One that I now regret. At the moment I was so nervous that I almost threw up.

Happyness. Like the mythological being flying towards the sun. My wings eventually burned too. I thought I had it, but I was wrong. I was told that there were signs. People told me that this would not end well. I didn't listen and had to find out for myself.

For over a year and a half our romance lasted. We spent nearly every free moment we had together. I had felt love like no other. I had planned for a happy life with a family and dog. I let her in and became dependent on her love and her need for mine. Life seemed worth living back then. I miss those days.

Our love ended as quickly as it started. Like pine needles thrown into a flame. One day she just didnt love me anymore. Like scuba diver who ran out of air I begged for her to come back but she did not comply. Instead she decided to torture me by having sex with one of my friends.

My trust and hope in humanity is lost. I am lost.
Due to some actions on my part I have been forced to see outpatient therapy.

Now everyday I take pills, that dont work.

I dont sleep, I dont eat, I feel incapable of studying. My grades are failing. Much like everything around me.

Its been two months. I'm not better. I am ghost.